Mint S Decot. ?? years. Unemployed. Single.
I think you probably know all of this about me anyway but this is what the form said for me to say. My first... uh, first umm... Answer for this one. This one that says "my aspirations", It's...
I don't... I don't have any. I don't want to "be" anything right now. Being things is hard. I have spent a lot of my life trying to "be" a thing and it, just sort of hurt. I tried to figure something out but after so many years of just hitting walls I... I don't know anymore.
(She closes her eyes harder than normal for a few seconds)
I don't have a timer or anything, really. You guys said that it should be 5 minutes but I don't really...
(She looks behind the camera)
Okay.
(She looks back down at the paper)
Strengths and weaknesses...
I think I'm healthy. I don't have any diseases as far as I know. It's funny but, I don't really deserve my health. What have I done with it? I just sort of played around in my own shit for every year since the collapse. I don't know what else I'm good at. I can think for myself, I can talk, I can walk, I can breathe. Maybe you guys will figure something out.
Weaknesses, uh, haha... well...
(She smiles weakly)
Wanting a redo. Rosa always told me I shouldn't have any regrets. I know she'd be telling me this even now, but... I had so much missing. I didn't have the childhood I wanted. I had this, mimicry, puppet show I had to put on, it was so meaningless, I can't remember most of it...
(She stops talking for a bit and looks off to the left, deep in thought, breathing shallow)
Ibis...
(Video fizzles out, jumpcuts)
Rabbits. One time when I was a kid my brother found a rabbit hole in our backyard and took one of the rabbits out. He put it in a plastic box and gave it grass and milk. It looked so scared... It didn't move at all, was shaking in fear... He tried to help it eat but it didn't want to. It stayed in that same exact spot until it died...
(Mint looks down at the paper)
I still remember picking up its stiff body, it felt like a paper mache project, like it was completely hollow inside.
My favorite animals are rabbits.
(Video fizzles, jumpcuts)
"-when you felt the most scared in your life"
(Jumpcut)
"Have you ever cheated on a test"
I don't really think so...
"Describe the..."
(She looks at the scientist, then the camera)
"First time you... masturbated..."
(She continues looking down at the paper, eyes widening in disbelief)
(Jumpcut)
-was kind of a mess. A hoarder. Never in good health. I'd always worry about her, she was always so stressed out. After having 5 kids she seemed like her body just gave up.
(Jumpcut)
Everyday after school Ibis and I would meet at the hill next to the bus stop. We told our parents we joined a club so that we'd get more time to be with each other.
(She looks at the face of the person noting the answers to the questions)
...more?
(A look of disbelief from Mint)
(A mumbling from behind the camera)
The relationship... we, umm... Were really close. No one really knew. We never said the word... 'girlfriend'... but it was probably how I'd describe it.
(Another mumbling from behind the camera)
(Mint immediately turns red from the question)
Uhhhhhhh... ummm...
(Mint pauses for a long time, looking down)
We did, once... at a sleepover.
(Jumpcut)
Ibis was.. my-
(Jumpcut, long static break)
-sunflower field.